Eva Millauer

Since childhood I have explored self-identity through creative means. Poetry and painting were my main creative tools when I was very young. I had blissfull experiences at any age I can remember. Separation and Union were always a creative topic as well as a yearning for global harmony.

I ended up studying Fine Arts in Germany where I was born and then met Liz Aggiss, who offered me a place at Brighton University on the Course "Dance and Visual Practice" in England. I absolutely loved being there. It was the most intense time of searching for truth and the creative process served me with it. Liz Aggiss was incredibly supportive and I was able to really do what I needed to and be myself. The dissertation I wrote at the time was called "Oneness of Being" and part of a first class dance degree.

When the course finished I couldn't embark on a performance art career though. It didn't feel right. Firstly I had completely exhausted myself with the intense search for truth and I knew this wasn't a way of working that is sustainable over time. I also had a need to spend more time around spiritual groups. I travelled to India and vsited numerous sacred places and ashrams. I had a phase of roughly two years where I was frequently absorbed in different mystical experiences especially asscociated with Lord Krishna and I was hardly able to function as an ordinary person. You may relate to that phase in your life where you consider yourself "almost enlightened" but bizarrely nothing really changes about the way you suffer! I had been seeing Mother Meera regularily during my time at University and dicovered Amma and Adi Da Samraj. Adi Da's Teaching I found equally attractive and frightening... when I really dropped into his writing there was no teacher, no teaching and no one to be taught left. Eventually I became his devotee. Adi Da gave me so much. The great search ended, because I realised that separation from what one may call god is actually not possible. I realised that mystical experiences are beautiful and ecstatic, but don't really bring the harmony into life that I was really craving. He taught me the difference between "cosmic bliss" and simply residing in reality right now and right here. I realised that there is no need to go anywhere to be completely at peace. The Mystery of Life is right here and there is only one. Separateness cannot be accomplished for real, as it isn't real. It never is. It can only be enacted. It is also Adi Da's profound poetry that first inspired me to dance profound words. Over the years this practice has evolved into a direct and whole-body invocation of reality as all-pervading oneness and love. At present I primarily either dance my own poetry or simply speak spontaneously from presence, from the heart, from oneness.

To me it is very important to be able to flow freely where creativity takes me, be it in word, movement, visual art or experimental film. I do not fit into any structure or religious pattern of any kind. My artistic and spiritual work is not part of any particular spiritual path. I can only see my own work as totally universal. In fact people from any spiritual path or no spiritual path can be equally inspired and supported by the way I work. In the meantime my understanding of embodiment as the reality of no separation has become more and more finely tuned in the ways i can feel it and teach it.

After discovering that I really needed to understand just as much about separation and my own often ancestrally based trauma triggers, to be able to teach in depth, I began to write the Embodiment as the One Heart Foundation Course. It has been in trial over a year and is now publically available. I recommend you to study alongside one-to-one sessions.

I also create art and soundtracks and love collaborating with other artist, so feel free to conatct me if you would like to do a project together.