When you stop looking, it finds you. There is nowhere I will not travel with you. You are loved. You are enough. Everything is temporary and ultimately, you are safe. Suffering is not what you are.
I am not a teacher but a fellow traveler. The words out of my mouth are just as much for me to hear as they are for you, if you want them. I share what I have come to know from this particular experience. I don't know what awakened or enlightened is, except..perhaps..a happening right now.
There is no end to the road I travel. Am I enlightened? Sometimes. Am I awake? It appears so.
I cannot tell you what exactly brought me to this moment. I could tell you I grew up in Eckankar(religion of the light and sound of god), that I have been doing some form of spiritual exercise everyday of my life(duh..I am the ultimate spiritual exercise), that I did The Work of Byron Katie every single day, sometimes for hours for over a year or that I have four guru children, or I am married to god himself, or that I die my hair with henna. None of this explains why I view the world as a wonderous oyster, a beautiful techincolor dream of absolute tenderness. What I seem to know is that when I stopped looking, searching, thinking something was missing..IT happened..it found me. When I gave up the fight and accepted everything there is to accept about being me, being human, being divine, being horrible..is when freedom came flooding back into my exprience. Love took over and I became that.
I came to notice that being in THIS moment right here typing these words is the best moment of my life even as it passes with each letter. I came to notice that love is all there is, ever. I came to notice that I am the crazy wild love of life, the tenderness of the naked heart and so are you.